Life as it Appears (disfigured)!!!!!!
Well, I have not written in such a long time. Life sucks.. let me start from the beginning!!!!
Ever since I broke up with Whiplash things have not been too good on my end. First, let me start with Isaiah and his father. His father only lets me see Isaiah like once every 3 months these days.. I called him about 2 weeks ago to let him know that I'm having a 3 day weekend from work and would like to see Isaiah. He then told me that it was ok that I can come and see him.. Then the Friday I was supposed to travel 6 hours to Killeen Texas to see my precious lil man, his father calls me to tell me that he will be too busy and I can't come see isaiah.. My world once again comes crashing down!!!
Ok.. since Whiplash and I have broken up, I decided to leave African men alone for a while and scope out some Americans. I started seeing this one guy name Theo.. Theo turned out to be someone who loved a woman for her money in which at the time I had.. but i was stupid and bought him some expensive shit... a $300 IPOD, a $400 video game thing.. xbox360.. and so on.. The only things he ever got me was a $10 "gothic" ring, and a $5 tinkerbell keychain because he knows i love faries... Anyway, I was really stupid.. oh, and from Dillards, I got him an early xmas present.. a $100 watch. geesus, i'm so dumb..!!!
Well.. Just stoped talking to Theo about a week and half ago or something like that. I went to this African party missing out on my african lifestyle.. so i went to this party on Saturday last week which was October 30th and didn't really have much fun.. was there only like 10 minutes.. it was a nigerian party for Yoruba culture.. so I left there and decided to go to this american party for BBW's and BHM's.. it was awesome.. i felt wanted because all night 3 men were following me around waiting their turns to talk to me.. LOL..
Anyway, The first guy Gary, he is actually a guy that i met in the BBW group online that was throwing the party and he traveled 90 miles to come and see me at the party. We met and unfortunately he was not my type but since he traveled all that distance to come and see me I ended up spending saturday, sunday and monday morning with him...
The 2nd guy who i was extreamly interested in wanted me to chill with him that night but i passed it up to be with gary cos he drove all that way and not for nothing..
the 3rd guy who followed me around all night is Marlon.. he was really nice and all that and I talk to him most of all from those guys.. but the only down fall is that he has a woman but it does not stop him from talking to me, or seeing me often.. He came to my job and we went to subway for lunch.. also a couple days later, we went to my house and chilled for like 2 and half hours.. and then he went to school and I just fell asleep thinking about him. I am gaining really deep feelings for him and don't know how to deal with it.. Just that he is like someone i want to spend some years if not forever with.. I just don't know what to do or how to tell him that he needs to choose between me and his girlfriend.. he says that they argue alot and that being with me "feels so right".. then be with me damn it.. i'm not a player and don't want to be so make ur choice Marlon.. anyway, this is life.... LIFE AS IT APPEARS!!! (Disfigured).....
Ever since I broke up with Whiplash things have not been too good on my end. First, let me start with Isaiah and his father. His father only lets me see Isaiah like once every 3 months these days.. I called him about 2 weeks ago to let him know that I'm having a 3 day weekend from work and would like to see Isaiah. He then told me that it was ok that I can come and see him.. Then the Friday I was supposed to travel 6 hours to Killeen Texas to see my precious lil man, his father calls me to tell me that he will be too busy and I can't come see isaiah.. My world once again comes crashing down!!!
Ok.. since Whiplash and I have broken up, I decided to leave African men alone for a while and scope out some Americans. I started seeing this one guy name Theo.. Theo turned out to be someone who loved a woman for her money in which at the time I had.. but i was stupid and bought him some expensive shit... a $300 IPOD, a $400 video game thing.. xbox360.. and so on.. The only things he ever got me was a $10 "gothic" ring, and a $5 tinkerbell keychain because he knows i love faries... Anyway, I was really stupid.. oh, and from Dillards, I got him an early xmas present.. a $100 watch. geesus, i'm so dumb..!!!
Well.. Just stoped talking to Theo about a week and half ago or something like that. I went to this African party missing out on my african lifestyle.. so i went to this party on Saturday last week which was October 30th and didn't really have much fun.. was there only like 10 minutes.. it was a nigerian party for Yoruba culture.. so I left there and decided to go to this american party for BBW's and BHM's.. it was awesome.. i felt wanted because all night 3 men were following me around waiting their turns to talk to me.. LOL..
Anyway, The first guy Gary, he is actually a guy that i met in the BBW group online that was throwing the party and he traveled 90 miles to come and see me at the party. We met and unfortunately he was not my type but since he traveled all that distance to come and see me I ended up spending saturday, sunday and monday morning with him...
The 2nd guy who i was extreamly interested in wanted me to chill with him that night but i passed it up to be with gary cos he drove all that way and not for nothing..
the 3rd guy who followed me around all night is Marlon.. he was really nice and all that and I talk to him most of all from those guys.. but the only down fall is that he has a woman but it does not stop him from talking to me, or seeing me often.. He came to my job and we went to subway for lunch.. also a couple days later, we went to my house and chilled for like 2 and half hours.. and then he went to school and I just fell asleep thinking about him. I am gaining really deep feelings for him and don't know how to deal with it.. Just that he is like someone i want to spend some years if not forever with.. I just don't know what to do or how to tell him that he needs to choose between me and his girlfriend.. he says that they argue alot and that being with me "feels so right".. then be with me damn it.. i'm not a player and don't want to be so make ur choice Marlon.. anyway, this is life.... LIFE AS IT APPEARS!!! (Disfigured).....
posted by Oyinbo @ 10:52 PM
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